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“Did you give the man the business cards I told you to?”  my dad asked me, hoping I had been obedient.

Cars were zipping past the busy street, and my dad and I were standing on the pavement having this strange conversation.

“No, Dad I didn’t,” I replied, not sure how my dad was going to react.

“What!  I thought I told you to give that man the business cards.  Why don’t you listen to me?  My son, you’re the only person I can trust.  Our phones are being tapped, and people are watching us!”

“What are you talking about, Dad?”

“Peter, our phones are tapped.  People are listening to our conversations, and I’m being watched by bad people that want to hurt me.”

Of course, none of the things that my dad was saying were true, but he really believed it.  It was hard for me to see my dad this way.

My dad, a man whom I deeply love and respect, believed that there was a conspiracy against him.

Later on, my mom and I would find out that my dad became ill and was diagnosed with delusional schizophrenia.

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This is my testimony (or story) of how I became a Christian, then an atheist, and then a completely different person altogether.

The Biggest Christian Influence in My Life

Grandma reading Bible stories with me to help me with my testimonyThe biggest Christian influence I had in my life when I was a boy was my grandmother.

I remember as a boy, my grandma would read me stories from the Bible. She was quite the evangelist.

She would tell me, “Peter, when you are ready, you need to ask Jesus into your heart.” She then would explain to me why I needed to do that.

It was because we are all sinners who violated God’s commands. Only through Jesus could we have the forgiveness of sins.

I thought about what my grandma said for a while, and then one day it just made sense to me.

I got on my knees and I gave my life to Jesus.  At the time, I thought it was one of the best things I ever did!

After that, I prayed and read the Bible for many years until I was in high school.

In my senior year, something happened to my family that made me abandon my belief that God exists.

God, Are You Listening?

When I was in high school, my dad thought it was a good idea to go into a business partnership with his best friend from college.

It was a real estate business in which my dad and his best friend would buy land, wait for a while, and then turn it around to sell it for a profit.

I remember that my mom didn’t think it was a good idea.

Even some of my dad’s friends at the time advised him not to go into this business with his best friend, but my dad felt a real urge that this was what he was meant to do in life.

So my dad invested all of the money my family had into this real estate business deal with his best friend.

As it turns out, my dad’s best friend was dishonest about some parts of the business deal.  As a result, my family was left with no money in the bank, and with property that couldn’t be sold.

We went from being financially comfortable, to having almost nothing in our bank account.  All of this happened in a twenty-four-hour period.

The problem was that my parents sent me to a private boarding school that we could barely afford even when we had money.  The tuition was astronomical!

To make things worse, my parents were paying for my sister to go to UCLA. Not only were they paying her tuition, they were paying her rent for an apartment, and for a large majority of her bills.

How was my family going to be able to continue to make these school payments for both my sister and I?

Was I going to have to change schools?  Was I going to be able to go to college?  What would happen to my sister now that we didn’t have any money?

Things Get Worse

After a while, my mom and I noticed that my dad was behaving strangely.

Sometimes my dad would think that my mom was poisoning his food, and as a result, he wouldn’t eat his dinner.

He had all these delusions that people were coming after him because of this new partnership that he made with his best friend.

This was a result of the business deal that went sour, and now my dad was under extreme stress because of our financial situation.  His mind wasn’t handling it very well.

I prayed to God and asked Him to reverse our situation, but He didn’t do it.

I asked God to heal my dad, but He didn’t do that either.

I asked God to restore the money that we had lost overnight, but God seemed unresponsive.

My family was going through the biggest trial of our lives, and it seemed like God was nowhere to be found.

God doing nothing testimony

I began to think that everything that I learned about Christianity was wrong.  I was told that God was going to help me during my trial, but God wasn’t responding to my pleas for help.

So I stopped praying, reading the Bible, and going to church.

I began to believe that the things that I learned about God’s existence were false.  I thought that since God didn’t help me, then surely He didn’t exist.

I was turning into an atheist.

A Surprising Turn for My Dad

Fortunately enough, through a series of circumstances, my dad became convinced that he was ill.  We checked him into a psychiatric hospital and he began to get treatment.

While there’s no cure for delusional schizophrenia, you can, however, take medication that will help you.  The only thing is that you have to be on the medication for the rest of your life.

My dad began to get better, and after a few weeks, he was released from the hospital.

By the grace of God, my dad was able to go back to work.

At the time, I didn’t realize it, but God was healing my dad very slowly.  That in itself was a miracle that I didn’t notice because I had become atheistic in my beliefs.

Now my parents were determined to sacrifice as much as they could financially so they could put me through college.

God’s timing was perfect because my sister found a great-paying job right after she graduated college that same year.

Things Are Confusing During the College Years

collegeWhen I went to college, I decided that I was going to live life to the fullest, and to embrace everything that my college life had to offer.

Even though I had studied evolution in my science classes in high school, I had always maintained that God created the universe and that it was not caused by Darwinian Evolution.

I knew that the two weren’t compatible.

So now with my new-found atheism, I began to have different beliefs.  I fully embraced evolution and all that it encompasses.

I thought that what I was taught about God as a child was wrong.

During my college years, I found myself fully embracing atheism.  I believed:

  • There was no God or gods for that matter.
  • Religion was just something that was made by people to control society.
  • There’s no life after death.  When we die, our brains just shut off the way your TV shuts off at night.
  • All religions are made up and are a crutch for people who are too weak to go through life on their own.  People who believe in God have a need to make up a god of their own imagination.

Also, I began to party, go to nightclubs, drink alcohol, and have what I thought was “fun” at the time.

I went to the best and most exclusive nightclubs in Los Angeles, and I hung out at the famous Sunset Boulevard, where parties happened every night.

The interesting thing is that when I first began my party life, I remember hearing a voice speaking to me saying, “What are you doing here? You don’t belong here.  You need to leave this place now.”

But I would ignore the voice, and after ignoring the voice long enough, I stopped hearing the voice altogether.

Living the Life of the Rich and Famous

I would live this party lifestyle for the next two years of my life.

I went to some of the most famous and prestigious nightclubs in Los Angeles. I ate at fine restaurants, hung out with friends, bought all the nice clothes that I wanted, and did pretty much anything that I wanted to do.

What I thought was going to be the fun-filled life of the rich and famous turned out to be a life filled with depression, meaninglessness, and anger.

only Jesus can heal a hurting heart that's my testimony

I had everything the world told me would make me happy.

I didn’t have to work at that time because my parents were sacrificing as much of their salary as possible so that they could give it to me, so that I could go to school, pay rent, and buy food.

My parents expected me to stay at home, study, and get good grades.

However, I was doing just the opposite: going out, not going to my classes, and living the party life.

They even bought me a car.  It was a used 1993 Toyota Camry that they bought for me so I wouldn’t have to take the bus to get around.

Despite living the life that I thought was going to make me happy, I still felt empty and like my life had no purpose.

My new worldview came crumbling down during a night of night-clubbing in LA when I realized that everything I was doing was pointless.

What’s the Meaning of Life?

I began to ask myself, “What’s the meaning of life?  Why are we here on Earth? What’s the purpose of life?  What is my destiny?”

These were all questions that I was desperate to find answers for.

So I began to search for meaning and for spirituality.

First off, I began to look into New Age philosophy.

I read a famous book called Conversations with God.  This book teaches that God is within you and that we are all in a sense, God.

The book says that there’s no need to think of things as a matter of right or wrong, but that we are meant to go into a higher state of consciousness, and to become enlightened.

I tried it out for a few months but this philosophy proved quickly to be wrong.

Next, I turned to the philosophy behind the power of positive thinking.

This belief says that you can have anything that you want in life if you can just think and visualize that it has already happened.

I tried this out for a while and it did seem to bring me positive results.

However, when I tried my new-found beliefs and it backfired while at a blackjack table in Las Vegas, that’s when I realized that this positive thinking thing wasn’t all it was made out to be.

I ended up losing money, and I went $4,200 into debt.

Oh boy, my search for the right beliefs was costing me a lot of pain and money!

Will the Real God Please Stand Up?

All religions don't lead to GodI continued to explore philosophies and religions, searching for the right one for me but I wasn’t finding anything that would stick.

My search would continue for an additional five years.

During those five years, I went from philosophy to philosophy and religion to religion, but I always found some kind of flaw in the belief system that I was researching.

At the end of those five years, I found myself rethinking my beliefs about the world, God, and the universe.

At this point, I forgot what it was like to be a Christian.

But I began to think, “Is there really no God? Am I here just by accident? Surely there must be some kind of purpose for my life, but why is it that I can’t find out what it is?”

I began to change my mind about my position of being an atheist because I started to think that there must be a God.

The problem was that I just didn’t know which god was the real god, or if anyone had even discovered him, her, or it.

I had tried the Christian God, but I thought He had failed me. Maybe there was another god out there that was true and real, but I just didn’t know about him yet.

At the same time, I decided that I wanted to have some kind of purpose in life because I felt so empty inside.

I wanted to have an over-arching goal to achieve that was big and meaningful for my life.

After giving it some thought, I decided that I wanted to become rich.

While I knew that money wouldn’t make me happy, I also knew that it does solve a lot of problems in life.

Plus, I could give away a large amount of money to charity, which I knew would make me feel good, and that would give me a sense of purpose.

Show Me the Money

So I picked up a copy of Napoleon Hill’s book, Think and Grow Rich, and I began to read it.

In the book, Hill teaches you to write down on a piece of paper how much money you want to have, and to choose a specific date by which you will have this amount.

After that, you’re to speak out loud every single day your written statement about your financial goal, and soon enough, you’ll find yourself taking action to achieving that goal.

In short, this method is teaching you to obsess about getting money every single day to the point where it motivates you to take action.

So I thought about how much money I wanted to have. I came up with the figure, $20 million, and I was going to have this money by the time that I was forty years old.

At the time, I was twenty-six years old, so that would give me plenty of time to achieve my new financial goal.

So I went ahead and I wrote down my statement, and I began to read it out loud every single day.

I started to become obsessed with achieving my goal.  Sure enough, after a short while, I found myself writing a business plan, and working towards my new financial goal.

But Wait, Something Doesn’t Feel Right

While I was working on making my money dreams come true, I went to Mexico for a family vacation.

One day when I was in the villa that we were staying in, I was reading through the Napoleon Hill book.

As I sat there in the living room, something felt strange and I felt like the purpose that I had chosen for myself of being financially well-off was  not the right thing to do with my life.

The purpose of life isn't to have riches but to have the righteousness of Christ


All of a sudden, I decided to pray out loud to a deity which I wasn’t sure existed.

I hadn’t prayed in years, and this time, I wasn’t even sure to whom I was going to pray.

I was going to pray, and I would test to see if I would get an answer from a god that I wasn’t even sure existed.

I prayed with a loud voice, “God, if you’re out there and if you are real, I want to ask you if I should make having these millions of dollars be the single purpose of my life. I don’t know if you’re listening, I don’t know if you exist, but if you’re real, please speak to me. I want to know.”

All of a sudden, I heard a voice speak back to me.

It wasn’t the kind of voice that you hear audibly, but it’s the kind of voice that you hear in your mind or in your heart.

The voice said to me, “Peter, make Me the number-one priority in your life, and everything else in your life will fall into place.”

All of a sudden I became ecstatic! I thought to myself, “Wow, God really does exist and He’s communicating with me!”

I just finished thinking that thought when all of a sudden, I heard another internal voice speak to me.

This voice said to me something different than the voice that I first heard.

The voice said, “That’s not true, Peter. You can have both God and money. Think about Joseph in the Bible. He was the ruler of Egypt, and at the same time, he believed in God.

“Think about King David in the Bible.  He was rich and yet he was a follower of God. You can have the best of both worlds.  You can have both God and money.”

What was this second voice? Where did it come from?  Why was it contradicting the first voice that I heard?

I didn’t understand what was going on, so I decided to pray one more time out loud.

I prayed, “God, a few seconds ago, I asked you if I should make having the $20 million be the purpose of my life, and I could have sworn that you answered me and told me to make You the number-one priority in my life.

“But now I’m hearing another voice and it’s telling me that I should have both money and God at the same time. What should I do? Was that really You who was speaking to me  a few seconds ago or is this all in my head?  Am I hallucinating and just making this stuff up?”

So I stopped and waited to see if the voice that I had heard would come back to me, and speak to me again.  But it didn’t.

There was just complete silence.

What was going on?

I went to sleep that night confused, wondering about what had just happened.

When I heard the first voice speak to me, it seemed so real.  But when the voice didn’t come back after I heard the second voice, it made me doubt and just think that everything was a delusion.

I ended up going to sleep confused, and dismissing everything that happened that night.

The Night My Life Changed Forever

I finished my vacation with my family, and I came back to my home in Los Angeles.

A few days later, I was at a place called Third Street Promenade watching a movie with my best friend.

After the movie, we were going back to our cars when a woman I never met before came up to me and asked, “Have you received your million dollars today?”

So I said, “Excuse me?”

She said, “Here, take this.” She handed me what appeared to be a million dollar bill.

“Thanks,” I said back to her, and I put the paper that she gave me in my pocket.

I was planning on throwing the paper she gave me away, but I wanted to wait until I was out of the woman’s sight because I didn’t want to be rude.

Instead, I forgot to throw the million dollar bill away, and I took it back home.

When I went back home and into my bedroom, I emptied my pockets, and I pulled out the million dollar bill.

million dollar bill gospel tract that's a part of my testimony

As I turned it over, it read, “Here’s the million dollar question: Are you going to heaven?”

The million dollar bill then began to ask me a series of questions on whether I had kept the Ten Commandments.

“Have you ever lied, stolen anything, or taken God’s name in vain? Jesus said, ‘Whoever looks at a woman to lust for her has already committed adultery with her in his heart.’ Have you looked with lust? Will you be guilty on Judgment Day?

“If you have done those things, God sees you as a lying, thieving, blasphemous, adulterer at heart. The Bible warns that if you are guilty you will end up in hell. That’s not God’s will. He sent His Son to suffer and die on the cross for you.

“You broke God’s law, but Jesus paid your fine. That means He can legally dismiss your case. He can commute your death sentence.

“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. Then Jesus rose from the dead and defeated death.

“Please, repent (turn from sin) today and trust in Jesus alone and God will grant you the gift of everlasting life. Then read your Bible daily and obey it.”

As I was reading this million dollar bill, my heart began to beat fast, and I got goosebumps on my arms.

When I finished reading it, the first voice that I heard the other night came back to me.  It was a small, still voice, and again, it was inaudible to the ear, but I heard it in my heart very clearly.

The voice said, “Peter, the other day that was Me that was speaking to you. I told you to make Me the number-one priority in your life and that everything was going to fall into place.

“But you didn’t listen and you couldn’t understand My voice. Now I’m speaking to you in a way that you can understand.

“I sent you this million-dollar bill.  Do you now understand the million-dollar question?

“The million-dollar question isn’t about how much money you have in the bank.  The million-dollar question is whether you’re going to heaven.”

I began to cry.

I couldn’t believe it!

It was God and He was speaking to me in a very personal way that I could understand.  He was communicating with me at my level, and through my personal circumstances.

God isn't so far out there, He's closer

I responded, “God, I have sinned against you. I have done so many wrong things against You! I don’t deserve for You to call me your child anymore.”

But God responded to me by saying, “My son, I love you and I will forgive you. I want you back. Just give your life over to Me and everything will fall into place.”

But I said, “I can’t Lord, I have done too many wrong things against You!”

But God said, “It’s okay son, I forgive you.  I love you, and I want you back.”

So I got on my knees in my bedroom.  I asked God to forgive me of all the wrong things I had done, and I asked Him to help me become a good Christian.

That was the night that my life changed forever.

I went from not going to church to going to church six days a week.

I went from not praying to praying and reading my Bible every day.

My life was so radically transformed that my roommates and my friends kept on asking me about why I was changing so much.

I began to grow in my Christian walk, and God started to change my character.

My relationship with God was restored on July 24, 2006, and I’ve been a changed man ever since.

How About You?

Do you have any spiritual beliefs?  Do you believe in God?  Do you doubt God’s existence?

Feel free to drop a comment, or if you’d prefer, you can message me privately.

I’d love to have a conversation with you about your beliefs or answer any questions you might have.


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  2. Amazing story Peter! I truly wish I could hear God’s voice as clearly as you did.
    May God continue to bless you and your ministry.

      1. Thank you so much for this…for sharing your great testimony. I believe God used this testimony to get to me as I’m on the verge of becoming an atheist in college. Thank you so much and I ask for your prayers too. ^_^ ~ Dane

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          You are most welcome, Dane! I’m so glad to hear that God led you to my testimony so that you can avoid going down the atheist trap. I remember being in your shoes and being bombarded with all sorts of things that made me question God and Christianity. Unfortunately, there are a lot of lies that are being taught in college campuses, so just be careful of the things that you allow into your brain.

          In fact, not only do you need to be careful, you probably need to counteract the negative lies with positive truths. I highly recommend reading good books on the truth about Darwinian evolution.

          If you haven’t watched evolution vs. God yet, I would recommend that you start there. If you come across any negative feedback about the documentary, take a look at the source of those comments and you’ll find that they are almost always atheists that are ticked off about this documentary.


  3. What a wonderful testimony and so inspiring. Thank you for sharing with us peter! May you be truly blessed in all you do. Tina x

  4. Believe every word that is written with understanding not from men but from the Almighty GOD.Thanks for sharing and May the Lord Jesus Christ shine his face upon you.

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    1. Thanks so much Jolene, that’s awfully kind of you 🙂

      I was actually just visiting Calvary Chapel Chino Hills because my Pastor spoke there a few months ago. I go to Calvary Chapel South Bay, and my Pastor is Pastor Steve Mays.

  9. Wow Peter, that is an AWESOME testimony. I didn’t know you went through all that, you are such an encouragement.

    1. Thanks so much Linda, yeah it’s been quite a journey. God is so faithful as He brought me through some difficult times in my life.

      I’d love to hear your story some time, Linda 🙂

  10. I suppose it’s hard to believe voices talked to you like this.. Especially when I’ve prayed for something like this to happen, yet God never delivered for me.

    1. God speaks in many different ways, and it is not always a voice. It may even seem like just a thought. We all would like God to speak to us but that is a prayer not likely to be answered. God speaks how He chooses and always with a purpose. I was at one time an agnostic, I had turned away from God…during that time I would often enough go by a church, and a thought would cross my mind, “I should go in there and speak to the pastor”. I thought nothing of it and in fact ignored it. I now know that was God, God who continued to pursue me when I had given up on Him and walked away.

      A verse will suddenly “jump” out at you, or you will gain new insight
      A friend will counsel you, maybe even say what you don’t want to hear but you know is true
      You will “out of the blue” have a thought about something you should do, or not be doing

      These things can be God through the Holy Spirit speaking to you…are you listening for His voice in the many ways He chooses to speak to you?

      God bless you Katsumi

  11. Peter you heard voices speaking to you so god listened to you. Why does he not listen to the children of Africa dieing of starvation, dieing of disease, tortured and dieing from war between religions. Yes it is time to see the light and realise religions kill babies.

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  14. Wonderful post my brother. That time with your dad had to be rough. Like my time with my parents separating, it caused us each to walk away from the Lord. Thank God He still saw fit to continue pursuing us both and countless others who have walked away from a perceived failure on God’s part…God fails no one, we fail Him.

    I am thankful He turned you around…you are a great asset to the Lord Peter, I have enormous respect for you my friend.

    God bless you and your family. Thank you for all you contribute to the community of Christ. You DO make a difference bro! 🙂

    1. Thank you so much for your very kind words Greg, you are a very gracious and generous brother 🙂

      I’m so thankful to the Lord that He also brought you back. After I read your guest post and you shared a little about your testimony, I understood better about your life experiences and about who you are today.

      I wish that you lived in California or that I lived in Florida so that we could hang out in person more often 🙂

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  20. This is the typical Christian story, like a dog you go back to your vomit.

    However if instead of vacillating from one false doctrine to another with a false fear of hell in mind you might have instead gone to the source the Torah. Which I am sure with your advanced studies you discovered does not mean law but teaching and instruction.

    For some reason the big three religions all claim the Torah as inspired but all reject it’s authors teachings for those of men. Paul, Rabbi Akiva, and Muhammad all created faith apart from the knowing of Yahowah via His Torah teachings. These same religions have adherents who claim to speak to and for their god, as all are false faiths we know these men spoke to and for satan.

    Your faith has once again allowed you to reject the evidence and reason supplied by Yahowah for our benefit.
    Next time you kneel in prayer think about what was revealed in this verse: Proverbs 28:9 If anyone turns a deaf ear to my instruction, even their prayers are detestable.

    You might also consider the word rendered by David: Psalm 119:1-8 Enjoyable, favorable, and blessed is the Way to becoming innocent, perfect, and entirely blameless by walking in the teaching, guidance, and direction (Towrah) of Yahowah.
    Properly guided, blessed, and happy are those who are saved and preserved by His testimony. They genuinely seek to have a relationship with Him and His witness for all time.

    Therefore, they do not carry out that which is harmful or wrong by walking in His ways.

      1. Sounds like he’s saying he’s right and your wrong. Lol! I do not believe the way you do but I certainly will not condemn you for your beliefs as long as they are doing good and not harm. This dude sounds like a fundi who is stuck on certain vocabulary words instead of love or a “personal relationship”.

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  26. Peter,

    It is very evident Gods hand is on your life. I just read 2 of your posts tonight and they spoke to me. Keep speaking through the lord weekly. I need to hear your messages.

    Be well friend,


    1. Aww Nate, thank you so much for your very kind words! They really made my day 🙂

      Thank you for your encouragement, it really means a lot. God bless you Nate and I hope you have a wonderful day.

  27. Wow that is a harsh statement by Mobyjack. I read the Torah, I also watch Jewish TV, which by the way Rabbi Gordon is amazing, and have been on my own studying the OT wholeheartedly, I believe that it is the foundation to the NT and you can’t have one without the other.

    I don’t believe that any ‘three religions” reject the Torah or it’s authors. Not one religion that teaches the NT doesn’t reference back to the Mosaic Law, or the patriarchs of the Old, for they are our foundation for the coming of the Messiah, each prophet speaks allegorically of the Messiah, some more than others. We have so much to learn and understand about the importance of the OT. Each verse needs ones full attention and one to meditate on the Teachings. Each book teaches: Genesis-creation, fall grace. Exodus-Law and grace together. Leviticus-trust in God, “you are a holy nation” it teaches how we must approach God, and how to live a holy life for Him. Numbers- even when we fail in our spiritual lives we are encouraged, victory is ours when we trust wholeheartedly in God. Deuteronomy- The promise fulfilled and deliverance, ” man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD”

    So much more can be said, but everyone should respect the Old and learn first from these Teachings, to understand fully the NT mission.

    Grace and Peace to all

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  31. I’ve been reading your blog off and on and finally read your testimony. AHmazing … real, heartfelt and memorable. Loved it. Loved how you told the story so personally and so open. This is what makes you an awesome follower of Christ and one who has (I’m sure) and will bring many into God’s Kingdom. Selah. Grace & peace to you!

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  36. Do you have any notes on how to reach out to my son who is interested in Buddhism? He was raised in a loving Christian home. He’s 26 now and living near San Francisco. I talk to him daily. Any pointers?

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      Sure Linda, I do have some pointers. Be willing to ask him questions and to listen to his answers. Also, find out what are the reasons why he chose to leave Christianity.

      Sometimes we end up having to learn the hard way. But since your son is a child of God, I’m sure that Jesus will bring him back to the true faith.

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  38. Peter, I enjoyed reading your testimony. Thank you for sharing. I believe in Jesus and I know he died for me. I try to live a good life but it is so hard sometimes. Please pray for me.

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      Thank you Sheri for your kind words, I’m glad you enjoyed reading my testimony. I’m going to be praying for you, my dear sister. I believe that God sees your heart and He knows exactly what you are going through.

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  45. Thanks for your message At 75 years I was going through a tough situation and after walking with the lord for 20years I doubted
    But through your testimony He spoke
    Glory to Him who is andWho speaks

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  47. Hi, Peter, I just re-read your great testimony and I caught a detail that I missed the first time. It’s been 9 years, (2006), that you surrendered to God. How amazing that your life has been so radically transformed in a relatively brief period. Your priorities, activities, attitudes, abilities, emotions, etc., have been drastically changed and improved (compared to your atheistic days). Truly, God has grown you to be a brand new person who reflects the love and character of Christ. And it didn’t take Him long to do it! That’s one of the main reasons I believe Jesus and Christianity are real. When I see people turn into hugely improved human- beings after becoming Christians, it re-enforces my faith. Its like slow, earth-bound, crawly caterpillars being morphed into gorgeous, air-born, useful butterflies. When I go to Church or Bible studies and gradually see troubled, messed up people becoming healed and restored right in front of my eyes, I love it.

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  48. You have an engaging, down-to-Earth style of writing that appeals to me. Your testimony is like a fascinating drama-mystery novel and I was compelled to see how it ended. I really like the snappy paragraph titles and the variety of photos. It was so interesting I wanted to read it again to absorb the details. The larger print and spacing between lines is my favorite format for reading. Ever since I had the pleasure of hearing you speak at church several years ago, I knew you were a blessed man with a valuable message. It’s exciting to learn about how God gets through to people. It gives me clues on how to better approach life and get more acquainted with Jesus. Thank you!

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    Thea, you are so sweet and I’m blessed by your kind words. Thank you so much for the encouragement and taking the time to share that feedback with me. I hope that I get a chance to run into you in-person soon.

    Oh, and before I forget, Merry Christmas to you and your family 🙂

  50. Your testimony is wonderful! I have been saved for 12 yrs now and for the last 10 yrs I have not heard from God. There have been many times in my life where I have wondered if God is real but I know He is. I am trying to hear from God again. I think with all the trials in life and feeling like He has forgotten about me that I just kind of gave up on Him and thinking that I’m not good enough.
    I’m trying to hear from Him again and have a relationship with Him. Sometime i have doubtes if He still cares or loves me. I feel like a failure to Him and me.
    Please pray for me.

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      Hi Mary, thank you so much for your kind words about my testimony. I’m concerned after I read your comments that you are in a bad place where you feel like God doesn’t really care for you.

      That’s because you say that it’s been a while since you’ve heard from God. I have an e-book that’s called, “5 sure ways you can know you’re hearing from God.”

      Would you like me to send you a copy? It’s for free.

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      1. Thank you Thea for your replay. I have often wondered if I am going through “dark night of the soul”as well. Or if it is because I just haven’t had the teaching I need through the years. Please keep praying for me. Thanks

  51. My Dear Mary, Sounds like you might be going through a “Dark Night of the Soul”. If so, it can feel very depressing and discouraging, but fortunately it’s temporary and you will feel God’s light and love again. It’s a good sign that you’re reading Peter’s Blog and reaching out for prayer. Mary, I bet you’re a kind, compassionate, sensitive person. I’ve noticed that tender-hearted, generous folks sometimes go through dry seasons, where they don’t feel God’s presence or guidance. The good news is that over time, they will enter a new era of a special closeness to the Lord. Please keep in mind that God is constantly working behind the scenes to bring you into a wonderful place of blessing. I think He’s preparing you for a meaningful, fulfilling ministry where you’ll be a tremendous help and inspiration to others going through painful, confusing times. My dear sister, I will be praying for you. Love, Thea Brescia

  52. I thank God for your life bro. Peter and other amazing Christians who have shared their comments on this page. May the good work of our God continue through us. The Lord Jesus Christ is good always. Amen.

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  53. Thanks for sharing. I asked a question once as an atheist and He answered me 1) audibly 2) in my mind 3) in my spirit all in one second without any confusion. 🙂 I am no longer an atheist 🙂

  54. Wow, Ray! How fantastic that God brought you into the Kingdom in such a wonderful, personal way. The Lord is so creative and so good in how He draws people to Himself. Would love to hear more about your unique experiences. So grateful you are no longer trapped in the dangerous dungeon of atheism.

  55. Hi, Robert, you are correct that the symptoms of schizophrenia include hearing voices, and there are lots of other significant symptoms such as hallucinations, disorganized speech, disorganized behavior (odd and eccentric actions), impairments and difficulties in holding a job, failure in maintaining personal hygiene or grooming, suspiciousness and isolation. As you probably know, there are a number of wonderful psychiatric medications available that can bring relief for this very painful and debilitating condition. Not everyone who hears a voice is schizophrenic . The vast majority of people who report hearing a voice on occasion are normal, with no mental illness whatsoever. Whenever a person’s quality of life noticeably improves as a result of a message they hear, isn’t that cause for rejoicing? Isn’t it possible that a Divine Being could communicate to us earthlings in a variety of ways including the audible?

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  57. This may not seem relevant now, but was your dad on caffeine? My mom had been failed to be diagnosed with caffeine intolerance. She is a God fearing woman. Her passion is the Word of God, but her reaction to caffeine became so extreme that changed in the wink of an eye. All of a sudden people were spying on her and a lot of other black helicopters were flying around. She cried and got amnesia and she couldn’t focus a lot anymore. Google cleared it up. Caffeine consumption can lead to schizophrenia. I know it is off topic, but it interests me medically. As for your experience. I do not believe that experience is the main method God communicates, but your story touched my heart. Be thankful brother that God brought you back.

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      In my case, it was not caffeine. It was caused by the stress of having lost all of my family’s life savings and having nothing but my parent’s jobs. I think my dad’s mind just couldn’t handle the stress and it led to this psychotic disease.

      How is your mom doing, by the way?

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  59. Nice to read your story. But it’s doesn’t provide any evidence God exist. It’s only your personal experience and a lot of believers claim it. But exceptional claims required an exceptional evidence. I look around you, in other places and to the eyes of millions who now needs a god to feed them, shelter them and protect them. Our action is what make us happy and sad, in every action there is a consequence, no one to blame and no one to be credited. Have a nice day. And hope your God answer the call of the 3rd world country special the needy.

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      Thank you for your kind words about my blog post, Darwin. This isn’t really meant to provide evidence of God’s existence. It’s meant to tell people my story or my journey of how I left atheism and became a Christian.

      If you’re interested in evidence for God’s existence, here’s a video that you might enjoy. Please share with me your thoughts if you see it http://coldcasechristianity.com/2016/what-makes-the-case-for-gods-existence-so-strong-video/

  60. I started drinking when I was a child, and at 42 I was was an alcoholic, a heavy drug user, I lived a very sinful life in my relationships with women and was on an extremely tough felony probation that hardly slowed me down. I was at rock bottom and even a sincere try at AA couldn’t get me right.
    One day I prayed to God, “Do you really exist, and do you even know that I exist?”. That was all I wanted to know. He touched me. I didn’t feel it on my skin, on my muscle or on my bones. I felt His finger touch my heart.
    Shortly after that I was Baptised in a cow pond! I’ve been clean and sober for five years now and have taught Sunday School, worked on starting a men’s ministry, and now in a leadership position in Celebrate Recovery. My Judge shook my hand and acknowledged that God had changed my life (he had originally sentenced me to 10 years in prison).
    Right now I’m in a very dark valley. My career of 25 years is in a slump (oil industry), and I’m out of unemployment. The only jobs hiring represent a 75-80% pay cut. No insurance that my beautiful wife desperately needs and I’ve had to file chapter 13 bankruptcy. I’m not turning athiest, and I’m just doubting God cares about my situation. When I was working I always paid tithes, offerings and helped the less fortunate. I’m absolutely depressed Peter, please pray for me. God Bless.

    1. Hi Walt, thank you very much for sharing your story with us. My heart goes out to you, my brother. I’m very sorry to hear about the tough times that you are going through.

      As I was reading through your comment, I couldn’t help but think of Job. Do you think it’s possible that this is a similar experience that you are going through?

      1. I was feeling like Job until I read it all the way through last month. Fortunately my struggles are nowhere near his, but I also don’t feel as strong, nor as righteous as Job. There is a lot of wisdom there though.

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  63. Yes i have gone through ur story ,Peter, onething i want to know how God is helping u in all sides including financial, emotional after giving first place to him in ur heart.

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      Everything is going wonderful. Ever since I gave my life to Christ, my life has gotten so much better. Don’t get me wrong, it doesn’t mean that I don’t have problems or trials in my life. But God is always with me, and He is always helping me along the way. I love my life with God so much more than without Him.

  64. Amazing post Peter, after googling “how and why I became christian” yours was the first result on the list.!

    “My Testimony of How I Went From Being a Christian, to Being an …
    notashamedofthegospel.com/testimony/peterguirguis/ ”

    You might not remember me, but four years ago I had spoke with you regarding an I.T. position at Calvary Chapel South Bay, and I remember you considering me for the position but for unknown reasons nothing ever came of it.

    The past four years have been filled with confusion, anger, unnecessary battles with those who cared for me.

    Last night, Oct 16 is the day I decided to get right with God, because like you said up above, I too felt God telling me that everything would fall in to place, I just needed to trust in him.

    I experienced a very similar sequence of events going from being christian to somehow atheist, and only realizing years later that could have avoided all that grief if I would have just put my trust in Jesus and not my own understanding.

    Thank you for your testimony Peter

    God bless,
    01001010 01101111 01100001 01101111

    1. This definitely sounds like it was a divine appointment for you to read my testimony ? . I’m so glad you did. It sounds to me like God is doing a deep work in your life. We should connect sometime if you still come to CCSB?

      1. Lately I’ve been attending Hope Chapel in Hermosa beach, but CCSB was originally the church I grew up in. I’ll definitly swing by and say hello, I havent been back since pastor Steve passed. let me know what day works best, im about 10 min away from CCSB

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  65. Hello, Peter. I just wanted to let you know that your testimony really helped me. You see, for the past (almost) 2 months I’ve really been questioning and criticizing my faith, as well as others. It has been really stressful, but I had managed to decide that either Christianity or Atheism was the way too go. But this was more stressful than ever, since how both sides had good arguments and flaws. I have been researching everyday (including today) and stumbled upon your testimony. I have prayed like I almost never had before after reading this and you ebook, and I hope God delivers for me. I would appreciate a prayer or two, but the main point of me writing this is to thank you for giving me one more shot at Christianity.

  66. Amazing testimony!

    Lately I have been intresting in books like Think and Grow rich, Do you think that its wrong to read this books?
    ( I believe in God totally, he is everything in my life. )
    Also I’ve been intresting in videos of Tony Robbins and things like that, I dont know if listen these things are wrong!

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      1. Uhm… well, maybe sounds funny but I want to be free. In the way that I dont want a normal job. I like business things and I start reading these books for education and knwoledge. And I see all these people that went from poor to rich. And they say that nothing is imposible and this motivates me. Is that wrong? I can tell you that isn’t love to money, is only the desire to be free.

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          My best recommendation, Rachel, would be to start praying and asking God if He wants you to read these books.

          For sure, I do not recommend reading Think and Grow Rich. That book teaches you to obsess about money because it teaches you how to think about having more of it day and night. It almost always leads to the desire to be rich and as you know, this is what the Bible says about that:

          “But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and harmful lusts which drown men in destruction and perdition.”

          -1 Timothy 6:9

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  68. As I sat and spoke to an old friend about God one evening while I was in Europe, my thoughts drifted to a grievous sin which I once committed. While it’s true I had asked to be forgiven for this act countless times, I believe it had become a stumbling block of sorts.

    Yes I do believe in YEHOVAH, God the Father and His only begotten Son YESHUA, and yes, I also believe in His love and His forgiveness. Yet something within me just would not allow myself to move forward. I’m not saying more and more of God’s Word wasn’t being revealed to me over time, and I’m not saying the tenets of man-made religion were not being stripped from me either. I am saying, there was something holding me back.

    So, as we sat there and my friend was talking, I was drifting off, and I was thinking about how I really wanted to be forgiven for what I had done. Suddenly, my stomach felt as though I had eaten something extremely bitter, it was very much like some bitter almonds I had eaten days before. But this was progressively getting worse and very rapidly.

    Much to my amazement, all of a sudden I could see and feel myself being sucked into a tunnel, albeit somewhat rectangular in shape. I could see the walls flying by me, just like one sees the walls as they speed through a tunnel in a vehicle. The only difference was, other than not being in a vehicle, it was more like being pulled back in a slingshot and then let go. What I saw next was something I never saw before. Even more interesting, was the fact I could actually feel what was happening to me.

    Suddenly I was somewhere else and I no longer had that bitter feeling in my stomach. I was standing there (somewhere), and as I looked to my left I saw and thought, that’s an angel. I am 6 ft. 1, he was probably a couple of feet taller than me and he was quite bright. My head immediately turned so I was facing forward. What I saw amazed me, just as much as what I said, and what happened next. The exact words which came out of my mouth were, “Whoa, you’re YESHUA!”

    Immediately, as I saw His face, I was on my knees in what was quite probably a blink of an eye, and I was overwhelmed with the horrible feeling, the weight of every sin I had committed in my life. The feeling of my sins which flooded my being in that instant, forced my face to the ground. I tried to push myself up with my arms, but the weight of my sins were too much for me. I struggled for some time and eventually I was able to get myself to the point where I was able to lift myself a little bit. I remember turning my head and I looked at the angel and I said, “Kill me, I’m not worthy to be in His presence.”

    What happened next, I will never forget. The angel just stood there looking at me, but what I heard was YESHUA saying, “Brett, get up.”

    So I got on my feet and what I saw, is somewhat difficult to put into words. I was standing there looking at YESHUA’s smiling face and I no longer had that horrible weight of my sins pushing, or more accurately, pulling me down. Light was emanating from Him, not like the light from the sun, but extremely bright; His face was brighter than the sun, or the brightness of an arc that is created when a welding rod first strikes metal, but I didn’t need to squint my eyes.

    YESHUA’s light appeared and felt like purity, and it went right through me. That is the best way I can describe His countenance – whatever the essence of purity is, that’s what I saw and that’s what I felt emanating from YESHUA. I believe that’s what God is, purity, truth and love. Obviously, He is the Creator of all things, but those three things are what I felt. The look in YESHUA’s eyes and His smile, it was the most genuine, honest, caring and sincere look I have ever seen; more so than the look of a new mother’s face as she looks upon her baby for the first time after giving birth.

    YESHUA said three more words to me, “I forgive you.”

    In that instant, for the first time in more than 50 years, I actually understood what the word love meant. And I was raised in an unbroken home with a father, mother, brothers, uncles, aunts, etc. I was told I was loved more times than I can count, but only now do I get it.

    Then He reached out His hands as if to give me a push, but without touching me or saying anything more (although more seemed to be said without words), I was thrown back to where I was sitting a couple of feet from my friend who was still talking. I was dumbfounded. I didn’t say a word. My friend was still talking, although he was looking at me in a curious manner. His look was basically, are you listening? But he went on talking and I said nothing.

    One or two days went by, of course my thoughts were consumed with what I saw or what I thought I saw. How do you say to someone, “Hey, I just saw and spoke to YESHUA?” I was actually wondering if I was nuts or something. So, I prayed and asked for some help in this matter. I didn’t want to get it wrong and I didn’t want to tell my old friend, or anyone else that I saw and spoke to YESHUA if I was delusional. I came to realize I was not.

    The stumbling block which I referred to, is no longer present. I consider myself to be one of the wealthiest people I know and I have next to nothing in this world, nor do I really want anything. What I do have is a much greater understanding of YESHUA than I had before. The only way I am able to understand words like forgiveness and love, is because of YESHUA.

    I state with absolute certainty, the best thing I ever did was to ask YESHUA to forgive me for my sins and ask Him to be my Lord and Savior, because YESHUA is the Son of YEHOVAH, and YESHUA died for our sins. He is the KING of kings and the LORD of lords. YESHUA was resurrected by YEHOVAH and sits at HIS right hand. Praise YEHOVAH, for YESHUA lives!
    The entire testimony of what led up to this day and some of what has happened since can be found at https://testimony4yeshua.wordpress.com
    Praise YESHUA Messiah!

  69. It is nice that God spoke to Peter, but how can one not spoken to have any chance of believing? It is very hard to believe without a single shred of personal proof.

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  70. I am at a point in my life where I am questioning everything. I am not saying that I am perfect and that God owes me an answer but I am in a personal mess. I am at breaking point and I needed God to step in like yesterday. So from going from believing blindly, I have gone to not trusting in His promises. Infact I even questioned if there is a difference between praying to Him or to idols for they both remain silent. I feel angry and betrayed but mostly abandoned. His silence is making me question the whole thing if He is even there? Does He even exist?

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      Would you care to elaborate more about the personal situation that you’re in? If it’s something private, then please use the contact link to send me a private message. That will help me to give you personal advice that is catered to you.

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  72. Hey Danielle, I’m in the same boat. Funny enough I’m on the verge of chucking my faith actually at a Christian college. When I sometime have enough faith to pray for myself, I will also remember to pray for you.
    Thank you Peter for sharing this testimony.

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      Hi Tiffany, thank you for your encouraging comment to Danielle. If you ever want someone to talk to about your faith struggle, then feel free to use the “contact” link on my blog to send me a private message.

      I’d love to have a two-way conversation with you 🙂

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  74. For a long time I was basically an agnostic. I was never an atheist, I was open to religion but just not totally convinced by it. A couple of months ago I started thinking about my own mortality. I had some serious anxiety and loss of appetite. I started losing some weight but I could stand to lose a few anyway. But I really started wondering about God and the afterlife.

    Nowadays, I’ll believe in God 100 percent most days and kind of doubt Him others. I think I’m on the right path though. I definitely feel a lot better about myself and I don’t think that this was all an accident.

    Really enjoyed your read man. Cheers.

  75. Hello there my friend. I am going through a VERY hard time right now because, you see… As I was studying the Bible using the internet, I came upon arguments against it (like, “there have been unfullfilled prophecies”, “some others were written after the event took place”, “others have been tweaked to fit in” and “there’s no BIG proof that Jesus and other events in the Bible happened”). When I read all this, my world started falling apart, I am scared like I’ve never been before because… I guess I’ve been doubting the existence of God after this experience, but not because I’ll become an atheist, rather, it’s because a world without the loving God I’ve known for the past 8 years frightens me. I feel like there is no purpose in my life if we’re here just because an explosion happened and organisms have evolved. I don’t know what to do.

    I’ve looked for testimonies of atheists that converted to Christianism in hopes on gettiing some comfort, and this is like the 3rd testimony I stumble upon with.

    So… D-do you think it was really God talking to you? What do you think about those arguments that disprove (or try to) the Bible and God?

    Please, pray for me. I really wish to feel reassured by God on his existence right now.

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      Yes Katherine, I’m 100% certain that it was God who was speaking to me. The testimony that you read took place in 2006 so it has been many years since this has happened. Ever since, I have been walking with the Lord and God has proved Himself to be faithful and true just like it is written in the Bible.

      Be encouraged, my dear sister, the God in the Bible is real and His love can be felt today.

    2. Hi Katherine,
      I would encourage you not to be afraid and to trust God to give you wisdom (James 1:5). Most of those types of arguments, when you really examine them, involve someone viewing situations heavily and often very unfairly through their skeptical worldview. They have to do that in order to preserve their worldview — convincing themselves that they are right and “suppressing the truth in unrighteousness”(Romans 1:18). When you look at each argument, consider if the person is judging the situation fairly. I think you’ll see they are not. The most convincing arguments I’ve seen for Christ’s death and resurrection (and therefore atonement for our sins) are by Lee Strobel in “The Case for Christ” (movie and book), J. Warner Wallace (see the book “Cold Case Christianity” and the podcast). These all help to legitimize the Bible which helps the Gospels to be recognized as eyewitness accounts of Jesus Christ. For evidence and arguments for God’s existence: William Lane Craig (podcast and books), Steven Meyer’s book “Signature in the Cell”. For all-around arguments about believing in Christ, Ray Comfort and Todd Friel have some good material (The million dollar bill tract came from their website http://www.livingwaters.com). To see how illogical many athiest arguments are, studying logical fallacies helps as well. Reading the Bible starts to make alot more sense as well and stands up to scrutiny. After studying this material, it’s much easier to see through the thin veneer that skeptic and athiest arguments have. Of course, God doesn’t provide us with all of the answers we demand. It is impossible for us to know and understand all of His plans. Everybody lives by faith in one way or another. Skeptics put their faith in themselves and speakers/authors they admire. Since we can’t possibly know 100% for certain whether God exists or we exist or Jesus died for us, etc., we have to choose what we put our faith in. Hopefully these resources strengthen your faith in Christ.

  76. Dear brother Peter,
    your salvation testimony represents the true picture of what Christ agonized for on the old rugged cross. I bless the name of Jesus for your genuine conversion. Hmm! sincerely, you must be aware that the race has not ended yet (Mathew 24:12-13, 1 peter 5:8). Therefore, let everyone who sincerely profess Christian faith be on the watch against satanic temptation, worldly allurement like clubbing, false doctrines, presumption sins of drunkenness and sexual perversion, backsliding baits of prayerlessness, negligence of fellowship and loss of interest in bible study——-. I am happy for your newly found faith.

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  78. Well Written. In fact I too read the book “Think an Grow Rich” by Nepoleon Hill. Some where in the middle the book stops making sense and things seem to fall apart. Later when I read about Nepoleon Hill’s life it appears to be filled with allegations of scams and three divorces!! But I am still searching for the truth.. Hope I find it some day soon..

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      1. Well.. I was brought up in a strict Pentecostal environment. My grandfather was a genuinely believed in Christ and his teachings. He made me and other grandchildren sit and read the Bible regularly as a precondition for dinner!! But now when I look at several things that are being said and done by the so called “preachers” and “prophets” I only end up with more questions than answers.
        Just like you, I have prayed several times for answers not just for spiritual clarity but also to get through certain tough situation in my own life. But I didn’t get any answer. I have even met with “prophets” (or at least they claim to be) who only gave vague answers to my doubts and questions.
        All this makes me wonder if there is a major impediment in me to connect with God or in fact if there is one to connect to..

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          Those are all some really great points that you bring up, Jeremiah. I’m planning on doing a video very soon that talks about how you can hear God’s voice and how to know God’s will for any situation in your life. Hopefully, that will be helpful.

          As far as your doubts go, would you consider yourself to be a Christian? I know we are still getting to know each other so I wasn’t really sure.

          1. Yes. I would still consider myself a Christian. I haven’t completely denied the existence of God but at the same time I find little reason to believe as well.. Coming from a conservative background I wouldn’t openly deny my faith and hurt my parents and elders in my family..

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          2. One thing that can’t be emphasized enough is that God’s voice is in the Bible. You don’t need to have a direct revelation in order to know what God’s will is. Thousands of years of testimony have been written down for us through 66 books.

  79. Hello Sir Peter,

    I am moved by your sharing. I too have experienced hearing the same clear “voice” on a few occasions (I enclose the word in quotation because it is exactly what you describe: not exactly received in the way an audible message might, but still as clear). I once attended a spiritual retreat at a mountain chapel/rest-house and it was there that I heard Him. I shall leave out the details of how I came to be in such a situation but I shall say that I went with reluctance. The circumstance was not out of the ordinary but the servants and the priest were quite consoling in their acts, words, and their very presence and it was there that I had felt loved. I came out of the chapel and into the little garden that they had there. Atop the mountain, I saw the sky painted with the colors of the setting sun, the wind was caressing my face. But guilt was crushing my heart. I prayed to God in my mind “Why oh Lord have you brought me to this place when I have done so many grave evils against you?”. A quiet voice replied “Because I love you no matter what”. I was promptly surprised for I did not expect an answer, and without me realizing, tears began rolling down my cheeks. I know for a fact that this answer could not have come from me for I myself am incapable of thinking of such answers, nor could it have come from anyone else for I was alone in the garden. To this day I still remember that voice that spoke to me.

    This phenomenon is called an interior locution. Many Saints in the Catholic tradition have reported that these have occurred to them during their life on Earth. The experience is certainly not exclusive to Saints, you and I and surely many others have had this experience. What is important is that we know and discern the source of these.

    I would like to focus on the second voice that you heard which contradicted the first. This is very likely the voice of an evil spirit; perhaps a last ditch effort to prevent you from connecting with God. St. Pio of Pietrelcina had experienced both kinds of messages and visions but he was not confused. He learned to distinguish which message is from whom. Now I type this from a blurry memory but if I do remember correctly, Padre said that if a message or vision came from God, the recipient would be filled with utter humility and peace, but if it were not from God, the message would instead bring sadness and confusion.

    I don’t receive as numerous locutions as did the saint, (he experienced much more than just locutions, he even experienced visions and apparitions), but at least after the experience, I have learned to be more sensitive to His presence. And I know that your experience too is genuine because it has moved you to change for the better.

    God Bless You Peter.

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      Thank you very much, Rupert, for your message. It was wonderful reading about your background and experiences.

      I’m currently working on a brand-new video in which I will discuss how to be able to hear God’s voice and how to be able to know God’s will. So I hope that you will be able to check it out once it is released soon.

  80. Amazing!! I stumbled upon a comment saying that praying is a waste of time. He said that which God do you think is listening? The one that let’s 22,000 children starve to death in the world every day? I kind of summed up what he said, I had trouble thinking of a way to respond to him. So I searched up what to say when others question God and I looked at this and the three reasons He doesn’t feed starving children. This is really helping me to gather a response and hopefully I do respond back. This is truly an amazing testimony!!!
    God bless you!

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  82. I have a question, when you say the bill started asking you questions, was it audibly speaking to you? because that is the impression I get initially but later on you say “as you were reading the bill”.

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  83. Hi Peter,
    Thank you for sharing your story with us.
    I grew up in a family of believers but we never attended church or read the Bible. Though I can confess to having always had a vague belief in God. After seeing a few posts about the power and love of Jesus by a well know musician (who I’ll leave nameless) I began to ask some questions about my own faith. I started asking basic questions about Christian theology to a co-worker of mine who I am pretty good friends with and who I knew to be a believer and also someone I trusted to give me sincere spiritual advice. He suggested coming to church with him which I did, at that same time I also had a sudden urge to read the Bible and get myself right. It has only been a few months but I can feel the change coming in my life. I can’t quite articulate it here in words but the Holy Spirit is at work in me, it is both tangible and intangible, like your experience with the million dollar bill. I am looking forward to this new Journey.


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      Sounds like you are on quite an amazing faith journey, Michael 🙂 If you ever have any questions that you’d like to ask or you find yourself doubting, then please feel free to leave a comment or contact me personally through the blog.

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  84. I’ve been an atheist for decades. I had several years of disappointments leading up to it from my parents divorcing to recurring ugliness with my parents and siblings and massive unpopularity and failures in school and I decided I no longer believed in god. This has stuck with me for decades in spite of my life turning around in every other way.

    My wife and I have a son and we have a non religious household. Not “anti religious”, just it’s not part of our lives. Lately I’ve been feeling that something is missing and I hear my 8 year old son make statements about god or religion and I feel this pain in my heart. I feel like I’ve made a huge mistake. I try to bring it up with my wife and she shuts me down with the same kind of rhetoric I’ve been using for all the years we’ve been together. She doesn’t feel anything about it. I know I can’t make her feel what I’m feeling. I feel like this is my fault for how staunchly non religious I’ve been for so long. People influence each other, especially loved ones.

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      Hi Matt, I understand what it’s like to not have a spouse that feels the same way that you do about a certain issue. Would it be okay if you go on your own spiritual journey of discovery and just see if your wife will go on her own journey maybe a little bit later on?

  85. Hello Peter,

    My name is Dainews, You remind me myself.
    I am new-born believer in Jesus Christ.
    I was angry and on the third day the Holy Spirit left me.
    What you could offer me to do if i want Holy Spirit get back without prayer of repentance and being innocent (pure)?

    I’m very interested how your life changed since July 24, 2006, maybe you you could tell me a little bit about your life with Jesus through these almost 14 years?
    Maybe God showed you your mission?
    What about financial situation?
    The desire to be rich has gone or you become very rich and use that money for the sake of God?

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      Hi Dainews,

      May I please ask you how did you become a newborn believer in Jesus Christ? Also, why do you say that the Holy Spirit left you? If you are a newborn believer, then it’s impossible for the Holy Spirit to leave you because Hebrews 13:5 says, “For He Himself has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

  86. THANK YOU so much peter for putting up your story. it’s been years to you with this testimony but its has been an answer to my prayer tonight. The Holy Spirit led me here.
    God’s love is great, he wants us to dwell in Christ and in him, we find all the peace we need, he supplies, he guides and shelters, he gives health, he give us the spirit of Wisdom and understanding, he gives us eternity… basically he has given us all things pertaining to life and godliness.
    So we have no need to feel the urge to seek these elsewhere. to make these our life goals, because they are freely given.

  87. I loved it when you clearly mentioned how a second voice came, and how it worked against to nullify the importance of the first; making you roughly conclude that it was all coming from your mind. We ought to practise tuning into the signal of the Holy Spirit. Because when we say we cant here God it doesn’t mean He’s not talking. he is, but as they are multiple frequencies from many stations/sources ( -> friends, parents, YouTube, lecturers, the trending stuff we watch…) it could cause the voice of God to be inaudible to our spirit.
    If we can develop that consciousness of the presence of the Holy Spirit and His purpose(…” i will not leave you alone…He will teach you all things,…) We will be more expectant of His voice and we’ll hear him when he speaks. God loves us more than we may understand, let’s know that. this life is not meant to be hard, let’s allow His abundance of grace to provide, lead us and give us wisdom when we need it. He’s ever present, never ignoring!! Jut attune to listening to Him every minute of the day; let Him be your ultimate. All things will pass away but His Word is for eternity. So when He says i will be with you/ i will teach you all things, trust that, believe that; because you’re the variable in the case(well, God being a constant). Stay blessed al!

  88. I found this testimony as I was doing a search on a Napolean Hill quote. I wasn’t sure if it had Christian origins or not. It is a quote that my Grandfather loved and we inscribed on his tombstone. I am a Christian and in writing out my story, was very curious as this quote has had a profound effect on me and my memories of Pop. Your testimony is powerful. Thank you for sharing it!

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